Jiwang Karat edition

I seriously have no idea why or how, but this song keeps on cropping up whenever i start to feel how i feel. Let’s not even begin to describe how I feel, because the PC will just hang due to excessive emotional flow. The song has no association with what i am going through, the unassorted mess which is my brain matter, or whatever else lah (nak describe keadaan diri sendiri pun tak mampu dah sekarang ni ye murid-murid).

But I heard it again today, macam tau-tau je kena jadi background music to my melancholia.

Makanya I decided to just have the lyrics up on my blog. For posterity perhaps, or simply to have it here.

Suka ati akak la kan? Blog akak.

Should anyone (yes, all two of you, myself included) want to hear the song, sila la cari sendry. Or listen to Light & Easy.

Just Once ( James Ingram ) 

I did my best
But I guess my best wasn’t good enough
‘Cause here we are back where we were before
Seems nothing ever changes
We’re back to being strangers
Wondering if we oughta stay
Or head on out the door

Just once can’t we figure out what we keep doing wrong?
Why we never last for very long
What are we doing wrong?
Just once can’t we find a way to finally make it right?
Make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it

I gave my all
But I think my all may have been too much
‘Cause Lord knows we’re not getting anywhere
Seems we’re always blowing whatever we’ve got going
And seems at times with all we’ve got
We haven’t got a prayer

Just once can’t we figure out what we keep doing wrong?
Why the good times never last for very long
What are we doing wrong?
Just once can’t we find a way to finally make it right?
And make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it

Just once I want to understand
Why it always come back to good-bye
Why can’t we get ourselves in hand?
And admit to one another
That we’re no good with out the other
Take the best and make it better
Find a way to stay together

Just once can’t we find a way to finally make it right?
Make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we can break through it
If we could just get to it

Just once

If we could get to it

Just Once…

Bila la nak abis jiwang karat ni entah, tak larat dah.

D babe, u know me and continuation kan? Tak jive, babe, tak jive!

Happiness Is

Just Once, can we find a way to finally make it right…

Wah jiwang akak kejap.

I’ve been feeling out of sorts for quite some time now. Some of the reasons for this were resolved without too much tears, some with a lot of pain, and others with tears AND an angina.

Yet, despite everything being as it should be, I still have that niggling feeling inside of me. Something that I can’t quite put my finger on.

Perhaps the residual feeling that seems to always come at any time without due notice is a sign of advancing age.

So maybe it’s time for me to just take stock of what i DO have to be grateful for so i would stop being a whining, whingeing (spelling? i can’t be bothered to check), wailing beeyiatch.

Here’s a list of what or who i AM happy about, or what/who makes me happy:

1. My Kopitiam Sisters. You gals have been with me for Gawd knows how long, and yet you STILL love me? That in itself is an amazing feat. I sooo love you gals tau. They have taken the challenge to take care of me when I am a cackling, grumpy , warty, old hag without me even asking them.

 2. NAZ. Has seen me dalam keadaan tak mandi, tak tukar baju, tak basuh muka, and STILL loves me. Every facet of my complicated life is laid bare to you, and you are still here. Thank you.

3. SJJ. Ah.. what can i say. Countless nights of alternating laughter and tears as we journey into our minds, hearts, clubs, mamaks. No one compares to you babes. Goss files shall never be closed. Ever.

4. TAHH. You have sooo passed the test of friendship, haven’t you? I am so glad to have you in my life, and pray that you would never be disgusted with my behaviour and may friendship lasts forever, Amin.

5. BM (a.k.a. Bimbo Moment(s)). In such a short time, you have become a big part of my life. And actually saw a part of me that most people would never see. There are no words to describe the gratitude I feel for you, for letting me share a small part of your life. I love you B.

Aiseh. Tengah jiwang feeling feeling, kene buat kerja pulak. Goes to show that it is NOT advisable to blog on company time.

To Be Continued.